for 4 months

its been 4 months u didn't text me.. cuma mek text ktk sekali skala.. ya pun ktk blas upa semadi jak.. i'm human, so i have a feeling.. it hurt so much u make me hurt like this.. sakit tauk x? slamak mek grk an ktk x penah mek x ngs.. mala jak ngs tegal ktk.. bodo kali mek tk nk. ngs tegal owg nok x penah hargai kmk n prasaan kmk.. kmk xmk pdh sbb mek x mk gadoh an ktk.. pkir lh dimpun.. mek simpan jak pa yg mek rasa slamak tk.. ktk tauk x sejak fom 2 mek suka an ktk.. mun mek tauk suma tk akn blaku, mun blh mek elak.. xmk ada sikit pun prasaan an ktk sbb mek tauk yg suma tk akn blaku.. p pa blh buat, nasi sudah menjadi bubur.. ish bln posa tk kaka hal bubur indh.. mek tls tk pun, mcm lh ktk baca.. useless!

u broke my heart! i hate u!!

i cant smile.. i cant find.. i cant stop lightless

im just standing there, preplexedly.. looking at ur back

just now.. ur words..

i dont know what 2 do..

looking at u going farther away from me..

my heart is becoming darker

in an instant, i lost my inner light

even if i wander around, looking for like this

even if i try to think about u like this

even if i try to look at u one more time

i cant do anything because i lost my light

what should i do bby?

(u who are goin away) don't say goodbye

all our memories are goin so fly

they fly away, so far that im unable to reach them

(its goin dark) it's all lie

it feels like u will come back

i cant leave this place

i'm waiting for u who is already far away

i have gone dark

in an instant i lost my inner light

even if i wander around, looking for like this

even if i try to think about u like this

even if i try to look at u one more time

i cant do anything because i lost my light

lightless

suddenly, ur love

the light tht used 2 shine me, fade out

if i had notice this farewell a little more quickly

it would have been better

this huge emptiness keep scratching me

this bitter scars remind me of u

i need ur luv

even if i say it a hundred times, it just a monolog

even if a day goes by

another day begins

i dont have u, the one who used to be my light

u, n im still standing in the dark

even if i try to hold on to u now

no matter how many time i try to tell u to come back

even when i try to look at u one more time, just one more time

i cant see anything because i lost my light

what should i do?

i cant smile

i cant find

i cants top lightless~

uhu~ im bored.. sory t-ah.. ur story still in process.. be patient ne? hahahah.. dun noe wat 2 say~ huhu~

bloggie hunny, im so sad 2day.. yesterday i met tht person.. th person tht i always love.. my love 2 tht person seems like there's no ending.. bloggie hunny, u're the only one knows my feeling..  oke~ my life suck.. i know that.. there's never happy ending 4 me.. hu~ just let me cry oke bloggie hunny? u cant stop me crying.. no one 2 wipe my tears.. no one 2 ask me whats wrong wit me.. n the worst, no one even notice th pain i had been through.. its really painful..

i miss my love.. my girl's.. i want 2 meet them..

 Surprisingly, love that spreads as I erase it

Like fate, eyes watch only one place
You touched my heart that used to be ice in front of the world

Sleeping deep inside of my heart you let me breathe
Coming deep inside of my memories you let my pain and sigh change to tears

Don't leave me, I can't let you go
Because of mixed fate, I lost your hand
I call your name in sadness everyday

Don't love anyone else, I'm here
I go back to the day I met you several thousand times
Draw the day when I embrace you

Like fate, I meet you again on this day
The words I could not say and was clogged like dust

Sleeping deep inside of my heart you let me breathe
Coming deep inside of my memories you let my pain and sigh change to tears

Don't leave me, I can't let you go
Because of mixed fate, I lost your hand
I call your name in sadness everyday

Don't love anyone else, I'm here
I go back to the day I met you several thousand times
Draw the day when I embrace you

mohd nur ariffin.. the love of my life.. i think i cant fall for him.. bcoz i still luv tht person.. cinta ku tertinggal di smk tung hua.. ku bsalam an suma cdak pengawas tek.. p ku x salam mohd nur ariffin.. ntah cne ny lari.. haish!! i cn imagine tht he had a soft n tough hand.. he really reminds me of him.. haiya.. th more i kept on remembering him, th more im hurting..

argh!!!!!! memalukan na ri tk... aku, munil n piqwan jd model.. malu lu jak aku.. shit eyh!! dh lh dpn love of my life.. mohd nur ariffin.. aku malu2 jak.. kimeyn lu jak.. malu na ku!! adoh!!! malu!! malu!! malu!! tebal lu jak asa mka ku tk.. nsib ku x mngs.. mun ku ngs.. malu gk lh aku.. antap lik jak mellvin sim yar ska an shirley wong.. miak sma klas ku.. dr pagi smpy ke ptg mbik gmba shirley jak.. haish!! hey ketua pengawas! its 2 obvious tht u like her.. stupid.. even i realize tht u like her.. i thnk evryone.. huh~ lwak jwak ny yar..

hey! im tired 2day.. dhlh knk ukum ketok ketampi 70 kli kakya knk nyanyi lgu sklh bdiri sparoh jak.. 2day i met th 2nd version of sumone.. 1st time i saw him, he look like chinese.. i thought tht he's a chinese.. duhal mlayu.. wakaka.. he's my senior, pengawas, had a beautiful lips.. the way he speak mke me melt.. his nme is mohd nur ariffin.. stupid heart, i fall in luv again.. he really look like al khaliq.. WHY? aku pndh pun mk mlupakkn ny, mk mulakn idup bru.. p aku tjmpa gk mohd nur ariffin yar.. nang kdak ny alu.. p encem gk lh.. cara ny klaka.. bibir ny.. suma kdak khaliq.. p malangny, aku tggi gk dr ny.. ny pke spek.. haish!!!!! xhal.. ku tggu ny tggi.. hahah.. ri tk tek, sexy lu jak ny.. hahah.. ska ku nangga.. mun tkowg nangga ny mesty takowg ingt ny chinese.. wahh!! the way he look at me wit his eyes n smile.. maybe blh tgugok lam kolam ku tk.. 1st word ny kaka an ku 'urmm.. pne ow.. ktk jd pembukak lak.. ny tk jd pnutup.. ktk 1st kluar lak.. plh pusingan kdak bln sabit yar..  phm ktk ka?' ku nangga mata ny sa mk pengsan jak.. fuhh!! dgn senyuman ny... wahh!!! cgek gk kes.. mellvin sim!!!! ya!!! mentang ko ktua pngawas tekk.. hahah.. ny tk pun ensem.. p bulu mansu ny kdak bsambong jak.. yg molh ku tetak an ny tek ny pke slepar jepon.. 1st datskul knk tumpu an ny.. hahah..  ny nangga bku munil da tls 'pengawas is a bully' alu ny mdh an kmk dwak 'saya faham prasan kamu.. saya pun mcm itu dulu' cara ny klaka pun lembut jakk.. haha.. udh gk.. smpy esok pun x abs crita.. esok, sambong pnyeksaan mekowg.. haish!! xhal.. ku sanggup.. sbb ada mohd nur ariffin n mellvin sim.. hahah..

wahh!! ri marek ku skul kt tung hua.. x sangka jwak ku pndy msok 4B.. pndy jwak ku tk.. hahah.. yg plg bes ny ptg tdk.. ku pat msok SM Vokasional.. kursus pengurusan pniagaan.. aku mnjerit n mlompat kdak mk roboh jak rmh.. so.. pagi lak kol 6.30 am, mbik sijil berenti sklh.. bye2 hell.. haha.. alhamdulillah ku pat msok.. bsyuko  ilak2 ku tk.. kli bulan tk bln nasib bait ku kli.. hahah.. nang mena2 i'll back off so u can live better ku tk.. ku xda gk kt cya mk nangga ny.. dlk ku salu jak ngs tegal ny.. this time will be my last cry for u.. im not goin 2 cry 4 u anymore.. tke cre of urself my dear.. :'(